From Chaos to Coherence.

I'm still in my mother's beautiful home and I'm working with an estate sale company, there was the Galesburg Antique Mall Company actually here where I grew up in Galesburg, Illinois, and we're having a wonderful experience. Now, it is very chaotic as we are dissolving the estate. It is sheer chaos. Those are all photographs from the last about 90 years and look at this beautiful table. All of this chaos here, even though it's beautiful there, and the chaos around us that it's taking to pull this all together. So every room in the house has something that is unbelievably chaotic about it. Then as we go through and it works through and it becomes this beautiful display, I see it go from chaos to coherence. And if I'm willing to stay uncomfortable in that energy of chaos, the beauty comes through. So often I find myself wanting to not be uncomfortable and this has been a great lesson for me to live right through that instead.

We've had a visit from mom....

We did it! We celebrated mom's life all weekend.

Both of my adult children came in, the two grandchildren, lots of cousins, couple of aunts, and we had a wonderful; there were four events this weekend that were all focused around my mother. A memorial service, a big celebration of life party, where we were able to share really beautiful food. There was something for everybody. We had gluten free, we had vegan, we had mimosas that were alcohol free, and had three different kinds of fruit juice. I mean, it was beautiful. It was a beautiful celebration of my mother. We had over 100 people there. It was such a great party and my mom loved to throw parties and to entertain, and she was able to do it for all of us and was with all of us.

There were a lot of emotions this weekend. My five and seven year old grandchildren really felt the loss of their Mimi, and especially staying here in her home. It was so obvious to them that Mimi wasn't here and then they wanted to know why we couldn't...

Look at these trees! Spring has sprung in the Midwest. There's green, pink, purple and white everywhere. It's May 1st, we've got a windy and chilly May 1st here in Illinois, and it's glorious. The sun is out, the grass is green, and Spring is here, the promise of Spring is here.

Our family is celebrating, is experiencing, our third funeral in 14 months. This is the weekend we celebrate my mother's life and our family is coming in, my two adult children, the grandchildren, and other family members are coming in for the event.

We are going to honor each other, we are going to honor our feelings, we are going to work through the grief together. It's going to be sad, and it's going to be glorious, and it's going to be happy at times, and it's going to be deeply meaningful as we bring to close this era of my mother and my father, you know the great generation as they say, and also the era of this home that they lived in for 53 years and the home that my children consider their permanent...

     When something really great happens in my life, people will say, "How did you do that? You're so lucky!" And I will say, "Well, I actually I'm Quantum", and usually that sparks a conversation. "Quantum?! What does that mean?" Well, what quantum means to me is that I have access to all time, and all space, and all possibilities in the universe, in this NOW moment. I call it the quantum now. So it's an understanding of how time and space are collapsed into the present moment. When that happens, I mean, like, all time, like anything that's ever happened since humanity began and anything that's now and anything that's possible in the future, I'm talking about all possibilities. Well, that's a lot. So what do you do if you have all possibilities in front of you? Well, you set an intention, "What is it you want?", and you set that intention, Energy follows intention, and you manifest what it is you're choosing to do, and you manifested from the quantum now!

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My mom made her transition this last week and I'm still here in her lovely home handling the details of a person's passing. Yeah, it's a lot. I mean there's things, I am executor of the state, so that goes to probate so we're going to appoint me, the executor, I didn't know I had to do that since I'm an only child. I just thought I was it and I would go write checks on her bank account or something, I didn't really think it through. So here I am in her in the energy of her lovely home, and I'm quite often finding myself grief stricken, and I'm calling it that. So when I was in the lawyer's office, and I had all of the paperwork, I gathered together all the papers they told me I needed to bring in, I brought him into the attorney's office, and I found my brain paralyzed. All of a sudden, I couldn't think of the answers to their questions, I couldn't think if I'd done it or not already, and I looked at her and I said, "I'm grief stricken. It has literally paralyzed my brain and struck...

From happy and healthy to hospice in five seconds. My beautiful, precious, vivacious, funny, intelligent mom collapsed this week. She was at a party with her friends, really having a wonderful time and was on her way out and collapsed. In the fall, she fractured her skull, and it was not a good prognosis. That was Maundy Thursday. I got on the first plane and flew up here on Friday, on Good Friday, spoke with the doctors and decided that it would be the best medical option to put my mother in hospice, because I wanted it between her and God. So on Easter Sunday, I was able to bring her home, to the energy of her home. This beautiful home that my mom and dad built 50 years ago, and they've lived in the energy of this home. They loved each other for 73 years, and if you followed me at all, you know that my father passed last year after this beautiful love affair for the ages and that my husband passed last year. This is the third person that I've been asked to put into hospice in...

I'm awake a lot in the middle of the night. These high frequencies that are coming in right now are keeping me awake. I'm able to fall asleep at night, but I'm not able to stay asleep. Two o'clock in the morning, I'm wide awake. This is the biggest indicator right now of my frequency accelerating, because these new light codes are coming in. They are their solar flares that are happening like crazy and there's M class and X class. I mean, all of these huge solar flares and this energy is penetrating the atmosphere. It's penetrating the entire Earth's atmosphere and it's not like you can get away from it, right... We're in it. We are in it. They're in the field. We're in the field and this is what's happening right now.

Speaking about what's happening right now, I'm at DFW airport. I don't know if you can see all the planes coming and going here and I'm up with the escalator and all of the different trams moving around. We've had a flight delay. I've been in Dallas visiting my...

I took a Tony Robbins training this weekend, it was four days, called Unleash the Power Within. I had a wonderful time having breakthroughs and learning from Tony Robbins, and he had 40,000 people come together in a zoom call, if you will, in whatever he worked out with Zoom and the owners of Zoom, to constantly push the boundaries of what is possible in training in our lives.

I was fascinated by the whole thing, from the technology, to the way he taught, to the way he got us into a peak state. I did everything he told me to do and as I did what he told me to do to get into peak state, I thought about the ways that I use energy to get in a peak state. I was happy to jump, and to listen to the music, and to really engage and to express myself with my voice, and I understand at a very deep level, at a primal level also, how that moves our energy, and I also understand quantum ways to get ourselves into a peak state. So I did all the things that Tony Robbins recommended while I was in...

My family has been visiting. I've been making a lot of videos for social media, but not a lot of vlogs, I'm back!

So my family has been visiting; my 91 year old mother spent two months with me at the beach, and my daughter and her two children came to visit for a week, and then my son came to visit us for another week. So we've had four generations of family here visiting at the beach, and it's been glorious getting to share really special time together.

So the story I want to tell you is my seven year old grandson balances his chakras. Yeah, he knows how to do that! And we've been doing it since he was about four. James always wakes up really early, and I said, "Now look, I want your mom to be able to sleep in so when you're awake, you come knock on my door, okay, we'll have some special time together." "Okay, Nana!" So sure enough, the next morning, there was this little knock on my door and in he came with that sweet voice, "Good morning, Nana", and I was still in the middle of...

How do people with anxiety calm their energy?

Remember everything is energy and anxiety is an energy, it's an energy-in-motion. A lot of time, it's an over-energized energy-in-motion.

Let's think it's an excess of energy which can also show up as an excess of thinking and excessive agitation in the body and excess of worry - anxiety.

We want bring that back in and give it an opportunity to release the excess. We can do that with one of my favorite exercises of all time, the Central Vessel Release. We tap our lower belly; we pull it up; and we say, "I release the energy of this anxiety."  Pull it up again, "I release the energy of this anxiety." Pull it up the 3rd time, and really flip it right off your lip, "I release the energy of this anxiety."

Now a few things have just happened.

• One is you've acknowledged that you have it.
• Second of all, you've called it an energy you haven't said, "I am an anxious person."
• And thirdly, as you do that energy exercise, you are fully in the...